"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." ~ Jeremiah 29:11
I started this blog about four years ago. I really don't remember why I started it; obviously I wanted to reflect on something. I'm also unsure why I never blogged on this page until now. I can only guess that it's because I told myself I didn't have the time. Now, so many years later, while trying to set up a blog page, I find this one, sitting patiently, waiting for orders from me. I can totally sympathize with my blog page, feeling empty and all alone with no dreams or goals for the future. I sympathize because this blog represents how my life has been for a long time. I’ve been walking through life afraid of pursuing my desires and dreams. I had settled for a mediocre life, a life where I was just going through the motions. Each day was just a fight for survival. I was so tired, so wore out, so EMPTY.
I know this is not how my Father intended for my life to be. About six months ago, I began to have a yearning for a passionate life, a yearning so powerful it hurt. I thought I was going crazy and I'm sure others thought I was going crazy too. So, I began looking at what my life consisted of. I began to allow myself to remember all of the dreams and passions that were buried deep down. As a result I found a girl who realizes that God WANTS me to pursue my goals and dreams as long as they are in His will. He wants me to go back to school and get my degree because that's a desire of my heart. He wants me to pray without ceasing for my husband, because that's a desire of my heart. He wants me to write without worrying what other people think, because that's a desire of my heart. He WANTS me to live a life confidently knowing that I am a child of the King.
So, this is the reason for my blogging. Blogging is the first step in pursuing my dreams of writing. My blogs won’t be perfect (feel free to correct my grammar and spelling). Sharing my writing on the internet makes me feel very vulnerable. But, I have to do this. I have to swallow my fear and just allow God to work through my timidness and uncertainty.
I have to follow my dreams.