Not too long ago, I learned that Brenn's half sister had decided to move in with Brenn's dad full time. Her mom is a little on the loony side, but it really got me thinking. What would I do if Brenn ever told me he wanted to live with his dad full time?
This is actually one of my biggest fears as a single parent. I know if that ever happened, he would be well taken care of. My fear stems from the fact that raising him has been my number one full time job for 15 years and I would be lost if it was suddenly taken away.
This subject has never really manifested itself, but I know as Brenn grows older he might feel like he needs his dad more and more.
I'm not into parent bashing, but his dad would get a pretty good deal. I mean, Brenn is already pretty much "raised." He makes good grades and is a good kid. Being involved two weekends a month did not accomplish this (he had a choice to be more involved). Being a full time parent accomplished this...
It's scary, it's frustrating, and it's depressing to even think about.
What would I do? I know I have enough going on to stay busy, but being a mom is my label. It's what I do. I'm used to hearing on a regular basis, "I'm hungry." I'm used to shuttling teenagers from one place to another. I'm used to finding dirty laundry on the living room floor. What would I do if all that changed with just one decision?
Surely I'm not the only one who's had this fear. This has to be a very real concern for a good number of single parents.